I go with the flow. Sometimes it's fast and sometimes it's slow. Where it is heading, I don't quite know. It's ebbs and winds and I never mind the sudden shift in direction or the change in scenery. Both the lazy river and the raging rapids will take me where I need to go. When the water gets rough, I find a paddle and I start to row. && I know, I know, even when it's tough... I'm on this river for a reason. Each season brings new endeavors unexpected weather and the knowledge that yet again, I've come this far. Through thick and thin, my gratitude has not shifted, I am grateful for this path I have been gifted, Whether I am low in the trenches Or sitting on a mountain peak feeling lifted, I am in love with every step of the way.
My life has been pretty chaotic lately. Between traveling, working gigs, being in between permanent places and simultaneously taking strides towards a solid future by beginning medical school- I would be lying if I told you it's as easy as I so often make it seem. The current around me is picking up pace quick and sometimes, it becomes overwhelming. To cope, my yoga practice has been borderline yin all season.
Slow. Restorative. && Filled with love, patience, and gratitude.
When I got home from school yesterday, I immediately started studying the origins, insertions, functions and corresponding nerves for the 650 muscles in the human body...I barely just figured out all the boney landmarks and the names of all my carpals and metacarpals...but that's the thing about being in an accelerated medical program...it's not slowing down anytime soon and I just have to buck up, study hard and trust that the Universe put me on this path for a reason. I decided to take a study break to slow down, find some space and just flow. (I ended up making a little yoga tutorial out of my practice that I will have posted below if you want to melt away your stress and get into a really good place without actually having to go anywhere.)
Here you go, friend.
Slowing down and taking the time to flow helps my mindset in so many ways. I'm entering a new season of my life and I still feel like I'm just playing dress up every time I put on my scrubs, or like I'm completely out of my element when I hear others in my class chatting in physician jargon and discussing modern medicine like it's second nature. "Oh, did you not know that the coracobrachialis originates at the coracoid process, inserts at the medial aspect of the proximal shaft of the humerus and corresponds with the musculocutaneous nerve? Because that's pretty much just basic shoulder flexion."
For a split second, and only a split second. I doubted myself. I thought
"I'm not sure if I'm the right kind of smart for this...I'm a philosophical, analytical, creative kind of smart. I'm not the logical doctor kind of smart!"
Before this thought could even sink in, my inner monologue piped up.
"Nonsense! You can be any kind of smart you put your mind to."
I immediately knew this to be true. Success is a choice. Mastery doesn't happen by accident. Just like I train my muscles through lifting weights at the gym, I can train my brain to know medical anatomy and pathology just like I know all the asanas. Memorizing bones, boney landmarks, ligaments, muscles and tendons and their functions and potential dysfunctions will happen in the same part of my brain as memorizing asanas, their Sanskrit names, their benefits, counter poses and associated chakras. (Thanks, amygdala, hippocampus and prefrontal cortex!) The key to succeeding in anything that seems larger than life is to stay positive, work hard, & know beyond a shadow of a doubt that whether the reason is presently known or understood by you or not... The Universe put you on this path for a reason. If it seems really far out of your league, then congrats- you're on a fast track to self actualization and personal evolution.
Spiritual shifts rarely happen smoothly. Just remember to breathe & slow down when you need, even if it's just 30 minutes of back yard yoga to remind yourself that the ebb and flow is indeed terrifying and divine, this awareness will keep you on course.
Your life is a sacred journey. It is about change, growth, discovery, movement, transformation, continuously expanding your vision of what is possible, stretching your soul, learning to see clearly and deeply, listening to your intuition & taking on courageous challenges every step of the way.
You are on the path- exactly where you are meant to be right now, from here, you can only go forward. Shape your life story into a magnificent tale of triumph, healing, courage, beauty, wisdom, power, dignity and love!
Thanks so much for taking the time to check out this blog post, as always-