This gratitude Friday- I hit the snooze button twice for the second day in a row. The last day of a long work week and I was feeling how much energy I've been giving .... how much I have actively charged others. In my dating life this week- I was called by the name of the ex (all night- not a handful of times,rather I ceased to be emy for the evening...) and on Friday, my new beau hops into my car and tells me a story about his day followed by a teary confession about how he's been in a "committed" relationship for 2 and a half years and actually loves his girlfriend very much. Ha.
I went home, sparked a joint, watched some Netflix with little Zoe cat and fell asleep by 8:30.
When I woke up before dawn this morning I knew that I missed my personal deadline for my Gratitude Friday blog post! So today- on Saturday morning, I sit at the bar of City O City (my favorite vegan restaurant in town) and as I sip my coffee I feel so grateful that being 0 for 2 in the dating game is literally the most of my troubles right now. If we are being perfectly honest- neither of these nights shook me or upset me in the slightest. Just reminded me that everyone is healing at their own rate.
But here's the thing....in 2018 the ex in question has never been mine. Heck, most people never even hear the story of being thrown through a wall or the multiple stories of betrayal I have under my belt. Why not? Because it's finally irrelevant.
And I don't know what day it happened exactly but in the car I actually said "Oh yeah I forgot about him!" Him being my most significant past lover, the one who shook my world the most, the one who made me who I am and the one I almost gave my life to...I forgot. I was too busy living in the present moment and being grateful for every single new day, every new beginning, every new chapter and yes every ending. Life is so beautiful and I am so grateful for this moment- right now. It feels like I've been trying to get here for years.
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