Today has been like many other days. I wake up, I make coffee, I flow, I teach a yoga class on Instagram and then I do another flow to create a tutorial. I spend more time on my mat than anywhere else in my home. Sometimes my flows are intense and last an hour or more. Sometimes, I get on the mat just to stretch for 10 to 15 minutes and that’s enough.
They say it takes 10,000 hours of practice to become an expert. At anything.
I couldn’t even count the hours I have dedicated to my yoga practice.
At least 250 from yoga teacher training but that doesn’t even scratch the surface.
So I should be an expert now, yeah?
Zen all the time, hand standing with ease, no pose is a struggle and I’m always in the mood for a good workout.
I’m still a total space cadet, somedays I have my balance others I don’t, I committed to teaching live stream classes as a way of keeping myself accountable because I know how hard it can be to go workout when it’s snowing and I’d rather stay in bed with my kitty.
I started practicing yoga at 12 years old and the funny thing is…from the second I stepped on a mat, I was really good at asana. I remember entering dancer’s pose with ease and watching others struggle to find balance or not being nearly as flexible as I am. Coming from a dance and dojo background- asana has always been second nature.
Since that yoga class 15 years ago, my dancer’s pose looks the same, I’m just as flexible and just as strong as I’ve always been, my body looks pretty much the same, my headstands are just as strong as they’ve always been.
In 15 years, I’ve learned how to Crow pose and I can hold handstand for about 5-10 seconds on a good day. So what in the world have I accomplished doing this more than half my life?
I don’t have a pose or sequence that I’ve worked toward and am proud of….Because yoga isn’t about pride and the ego. It’s about releasing all that and connecting with the soul.
If anything, I am mostly pleased with my consistency in practice and the evolution of my mind set. Growing up as a dancer, model and actress, I couldn’t help but strive for perfection, I was always feeling “not good enough” and comparing myself or my performance to others.
Yoga helped me let go of all that.
My mat is my safe space for me to practice self love and to do right by my body.
It looks different every day.
My practice never compares to others.
It honors the present moment.
It makes me feel good about my body and my abilities.
It never makes me feel like I need to push myself too far to achieve a certain pose or to look a certain way.
My yoga practice is pure love.
As a teenager, I felt like a prisoner in my own skin, as an adult, yoga has set me free and allowed me to see my body as a temple of the divine and a place to play and rejoice.
It’s true what they say- yoga is not about the ability to touch your toes, it’s about what you learn on the way down!
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